Contradiction Within, Conflict Inside

I am just torn with the idea if i should continue my chosen path or not. I am not that kind of person to be bothered on some small things but i prefer to answer this once and for all.

it started when I entered law school. Before, i dont encounter things which failed my expectations: high grades, good recitations, enjoyed social life and good friends. Only in this institution that it exposed me that there is certainly an another side of the coin.

Got a failing mark in 3 subjects (so far and i hope that it is the only last subject to get such failing mark), less social involvement, few extra curricular activities (literally) and rich classmates (finance, brains, properties and etc.) are some disappointment momentum i have encountered in my law school life. This is not what i intended, i just want a carefree life where i can enjoy it, study hard while having an involvement outside the school.

However, one of my friend always reminds me of one thing that if you encounter this kind of feeling of failure and disappointment, always go back to basic. That basic question is, "Why I am Here?"

Yeah, it is true! I am in lawschool because of them, because of the children and youth who become victims of oppression and abuses. Furthermore, i am also here because i want to prove to my father that i more than what he thinks about me. But balancing these reasons, i prefer the former than the latter.

I will try to introduce my different inspirations as i will continue my blog posting. Take Care!